Sheep

This one will be interesting and I myself am excited to see where this is going to go.

My brain goes about a million miles a minute trying to figure out what God is trying to show me some days. That is why I started this Blog. This is an outlet for me to sort out what's going on between my heart and my head. They aren't always in sync with each other. I say that because I know God has spoken truth into my heart. What I see,what I feel, and what I know to be true, sometimes don't all go together. Let me explain.

For as many times as I have said, "God has a plan and a purpose for our lives, stay on track and he will lead you there", I still struggle with that. When you read it, it sounds great. When you actually apply it to your life it is a struggle. You know what you need to do, yet the devil is there to whisper in your ear "you don't need this new life", you really aren't a new creation in Christ, your still the same old Dez that I had a hold onto for years." LIES LIES LIES!

This happens when I get fearful of stepping outside of God's will and finding my self lost b/c of the "slow fade" (compromises) that I have allowed in my life.

The fear of the Lord is a fountain of life, turning a man from the snares of death.
Prov 14:27

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding. Prov 9:10

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your path straight. Prov 3:5

The sheep scenario

We all are like sheep that have been lead astray. We have wondered so far away from the Shepard, that we no longer have him in our sights, and there aren't any other sheep around us for accountability. We experience pain b/c we thought we could do it on our own. We didn't need the Shepard. We really really really did need the Shepherd. When we realize this, we go back to him to ask for his forgiveness and to come back to the flock. The Shepard takes us back, we have a little party with the other sheep, who are so very happy as well to see us. YIPPEE! Once we've celebrated, it's then time to get back on the path with the Shepard and start moving forward again. The parties over, the Shepard starts to walk and the sheep follow him.

Let me tell you my position in the flock as the Shepard is leading. I am walking as close to him as I can without him tripping over me. I have to be right there, so I can hear him, see him, smell him, just know that he is right there with me at all times. If I start to wonder a little to the left or right, I can hear him and the other sheep saying, "your starting to stray you need to come back". You may see this as a weak sheep. I see it as a smart sheep that is tired of the cycle of pain that is created from leaving the flock. The Lord is my Shepard, whom shall I fear? As long as I stay close to him, I have no fear b/c he takes care of me. My relationship with him is so precious that I have to guard it from the world who wants to take him from me. I am a Christ follower and I never want to take that for granted. God has given me a gift of a second chance. It took me a while and many mistakes and heartache to get here. There are days that I do have to fight to keep him in my life. That's ok. He fought and died for me, so that I may truly know him. There are just as many days when I am so tired from walking that he has to carry me. Those have been some of my best days with him. I will continue on my journey with him, b/c I know that he loves and cares for me and wants whats best for me so I may continue to grow in him.

Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has gone and the new has come! 2 Cor 5:17

Knight in Shining Armor

I went to see the movie "He's just not that into you". Cute movie. There were things in it I didn't agree with, but it was a movie for entertainment. Unfortuuatly there were many impressionable women, of all ages, watching this inside look into how we do realationships. I thought there should have been some one there to strike up conversation with the women in the theater when it was over. We could have prayed, it would have been great. I think I just described a Beth Moore convention.

I so wish there were more women like Beth Moore. Watching that movie made me have a new appreciation for my singleness. I am single, but I'm not alone. It took me a long time to realize that. One of the characters in the movie, was so desperate to find "THE ONE" that she thought every guy she met was "THE ONE". She had no problem stalking him to get that information. There were a few things that caught my attention while watching the movie

In one scene, the female character was told by a male friend, "if a guy wants to spend time with you he will do whatever it takes to make that happen". WOW. I had to do some reflecting with that. In my reflection I saw someone who needed to be reminded of that.

Even though I am not alone, I always have Jesus and he is the great comforter. I do desire a relationship. Not one that I am going to have to chase after, but one that will chase after me. I saw a pattern in my past relationships, of chasing. I so despriately needed someone ,anyone to love me. When I talk with my friends I could drop his name, and they would be jealous, because he truly loved me. I think we treat love like a popularity contest. Who loves you? How many people love you? If a man loves you, you have truly arrived and the rest of your life will be wonderful. Even if that person really doesn't love you, but he smiles, or says hello, that can keep hope alive that someone will love you one day, therefore someone out there loves you. I use to think that until a man loved you, you had no purpose and no identity. There are so many women out there that feel like this.

We can only get our identity through Jesus Christ ladies. He is our knight in shining armor that has come to resue us. He truly loves us with all his heart and is willing to chase after us. He brings us purpose to our lives. Married ,Single ,Divorced it doesn't matter. You can't find what you need to fill the void from a man here on earth. They are only human and make mistakes just like we do. They are not our Saviors. That's a lot of responsability to put on anyone. You are setting yourself up to fail with that mind set. We tend to get desperate in our search for that man that will make it all better.

When in desperation we make very very bad decisions.If you follow the wrong man, he will probaly lead you all the way to hell and back, and not even care about the destruction he has left behind. Maybe even twice. God wants us to be strong women in him, so that when he does bring us our knight, we will be strong and supportive of our man. We will be able to do life together as a team. Your team needs to be strong enough to take on the world. That's why we need to wait on Godly men. No they are not perfect, but life is hard enough without a foundation to work with. You would never build a house without a foundation to start with. If you did, your house would surely come crashing down. I know about crashing and trying to pick up the pieces after the wreck.

"We are the rule not the exception". That line was used to descibe women who on the off chance had gotten themselves into a bad relationship, but it ended up happliy every after. This women were considered lucky in the movie and they were the exception. I am going to challenge you to think outside the box right now.

We who are godly women, who make a choice to wait for God to bring us someone, we are the rule and there is no exceptions and there is no subsitutes.

For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road, that leads to life, and only a few find it. Romans 7:13-14.

Find that narrow road. It may be narrow, but there are more people on it than you think. Cling to those people to help you on your journey. Life is not meant to be done alone, but that doesn't mean you have to be doing life with a man this very second. It may not be your time yet. I believe God teaches us how to have a realtionship with him, to prepare us for the man he will bring to us. It's all about timeing. Find a group of Godly women, married, single, divorced it doesn't matter. Do life with them. Learn from them. God will honor that.

Treat each day like today is the day the Lord has made. Learn, grow, laugh and love.