Sheep

This one will be interesting and I myself am excited to see where this is going to go.

My brain goes about a million miles a minute trying to figure out what God is trying to show me some days. That is why I started this Blog. This is an outlet for me to sort out what's going on between my heart and my head. They aren't always in sync with each other. I say that because I know God has spoken truth into my heart. What I see,what I feel, and what I know to be true, sometimes don't all go together. Let me explain.

For as many times as I have said, "God has a plan and a purpose for our lives, stay on track and he will lead you there", I still struggle with that. When you read it, it sounds great. When you actually apply it to your life it is a struggle. You know what you need to do, yet the devil is there to whisper in your ear "you don't need this new life", you really aren't a new creation in Christ, your still the same old Dez that I had a hold onto for years." LIES LIES LIES!

This happens when I get fearful of stepping outside of God's will and finding my self lost b/c of the "slow fade" (compromises) that I have allowed in my life.

The fear of the Lord is a fountain of life, turning a man from the snares of death.
Prov 14:27

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding. Prov 9:10

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your path straight. Prov 3:5

The sheep scenario

We all are like sheep that have been lead astray. We have wondered so far away from the Shepard, that we no longer have him in our sights, and there aren't any other sheep around us for accountability. We experience pain b/c we thought we could do it on our own. We didn't need the Shepard. We really really really did need the Shepherd. When we realize this, we go back to him to ask for his forgiveness and to come back to the flock. The Shepard takes us back, we have a little party with the other sheep, who are so very happy as well to see us. YIPPEE! Once we've celebrated, it's then time to get back on the path with the Shepard and start moving forward again. The parties over, the Shepard starts to walk and the sheep follow him.

Let me tell you my position in the flock as the Shepard is leading. I am walking as close to him as I can without him tripping over me. I have to be right there, so I can hear him, see him, smell him, just know that he is right there with me at all times. If I start to wonder a little to the left or right, I can hear him and the other sheep saying, "your starting to stray you need to come back". You may see this as a weak sheep. I see it as a smart sheep that is tired of the cycle of pain that is created from leaving the flock. The Lord is my Shepard, whom shall I fear? As long as I stay close to him, I have no fear b/c he takes care of me. My relationship with him is so precious that I have to guard it from the world who wants to take him from me. I am a Christ follower and I never want to take that for granted. God has given me a gift of a second chance. It took me a while and many mistakes and heartache to get here. There are days that I do have to fight to keep him in my life. That's ok. He fought and died for me, so that I may truly know him. There are just as many days when I am so tired from walking that he has to carry me. Those have been some of my best days with him. I will continue on my journey with him, b/c I know that he loves and cares for me and wants whats best for me so I may continue to grow in him.

Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has gone and the new has come! 2 Cor 5:17